The quiet one

The quiet one

We grew up
Watching the old woman
Run frantically around her house
Local and World News blaring too loud!
Nobody surrounding the breakfast,lunch, and dinner table could hear their own thoughts being processed at the given time of her presence. Yet everybody heard her.
Horror stories were broadcasted loudly, as they left her mouth while the words entered so clear and carefully into every open ear that was near. "You better not hit any deers on the drive home, if you do it's going to be expensive replacing the windshield! We don't need more bills to pay!" "Did you hear what so and so is doing with their life? Well so and so better shape up! Life isnt going to be easy and there is going to be hell to pay!"
Always so quick to assume the worst was yet to come. Severe consequences were a likely outcome much like her opinions or so she thought. Never present to find the pleasant surprise of letting go of the wall that carried all her fear...
Behind the wall shadows fall in fear, worry, and defeat
But who can deny
The call of butterflies?
Have you ever looked out of the eyes of another?
Have you ever stepped into the same river twice?
Have you ever turned off the outside noise to hear the voice of your own heart?
Why do we store so much pride?
Why do we give in to so much manipulation?
OUTSIDE...
My reputation looked so appealing to the eyes of others.
INSIDE...
My heart was an apple rotting to the core
MY MIND...
said yes to everything
WHERE....
Is the no in that?

I spun around in circles....

Until I fell into silence.