Dear YouTube

 I was seven years old and life was good. Not great but it was good. My mother and father fought a lot, almost constantly. But I knew they loved each other. One night I had an ear infection, every noise was painful. Even the flapping wings of pigeons which was normal for the small town of berwyn IL on occasion. The sounds roared in my ears like lions. Growling and snarling pain through my head. That day I begged for sleep.

  I couldn't due to my parents arguing. I couldn't hear what they screamed about, but all they did was scream. I began to chime in with them, going from a pathetic whimper to a alto yelling. They came in and gushed me to sleep, I lay down as my father lay beside me until I fell asleep. I was so grateful for that, do very grateful.
The next day I was cranky, I'll admit I deserved the spanking my father had given me, but at the time I was angry. So angry that I told him that I wished he was dead, that I hated him.

The next few months he deteriorated, he went from working his butt off to being on life support for months. My mother held his hand for 47 minutes until he passed.
  I then learned that he hadn't been my biological father. But I knew in my heart he was my daddy. No matter what, he was my daddy and would always be. Because he knew that I wasn't his, but he still loved me none the less. That night, when my mother and father were arguing, I believe that they were arguing over me, over my father. But he still came into my room and laid down next to me, smoothing my hair until I fell asleep.

Dear YouTube viewers, I know that you are not my biological family, but you are my family in my heart. You make me smile, you make me laugh, and I throughout want to do the same for you. This is why I record, because if I can make at least one person smile, I'll carry on my father's legacy. I know you are not related to me, but I'm still going to be here for you. No matter what. heart emoticon that's why your my fluffybutts.

~kiramae16f