"Not Meant To Be"

                "Not Meant To Be"

Sometimes in the middle of the night
She can still hear 18 years of fighting
Like echoes screaming in the night
About as clear as the sound of sirens
And she hates the sound of sirens
Because they remind her of hospitals
Where unpredictable things happen.

6 Years old:
After the front door slammed shut
She watched him leave
Through the door hole
Riding away on his bike
Not knowing
Where he would go next
She watched him ride away
Until he was a speck of dust in the wind and a tear in her eye.

8 Years Old:
Foster care was the worst 4 months
But the battle was won
Custody was re-gained
Because of deep love.
The memory of those 4 awful months affirmed her for the rest of her life that if she could endure that
She could get through anything.

11 Years Old:
He was always on her mind.
He went one year without calling them.
Until one summer night.
They decided to try again.
But this would be the "last time"

14 Years Old:
A painfully unforgettable 4th of July
Which lead to yelling and screaming
In the living room
She tried to stop the arguing
She tried to get them to talk
But for a 14 year old...
It was a flood of tears
with currents beyond her control.
The next thing she knew...
She was saying goodbye again
As she watched him
Ride his bike off into the distance
Until he was a speck of dust in the wind and an ocean that filled her eyes.

16 Years Old:
They decided to try again and once again said this would be the last time. He always told her to be on guard and expect the unexpected.

18 Years Old:
She Graduated High School.
He couldn't help but question what he had been doing his whole life up until this point. This time he chose to leave. This time was the last time. She didn't cry. She didn't wonder. She learned serenity. Because sometimes relationships end and people aren't meant to be.

24 Years Old:
Her ignorant boyfriend wonders why she refuses to call him "DADDY" for the fun of the sex. She ran away from him because of his ignorance. The angels surrounding her are proud of the courage she had not to settle for him. They love her for her independence.
In the sound of serenity some things just aren't meant to be.