I seem to live in the margins. I live in the margins of my own life, afraid to put myself out there, in fear that I will fail. I am not living my life even by my own standards. I don't even practice what I preach. I keep telling people that I want to live a life full of gaining knowledge and adventures. But aside from gaining knowledge, there aren't any adventures, there is nothing exciting going on. Stuck in the margins of my own life, seemingly content in not going anywhere, no matter how much I want it all to change.
The margins of life tend to keep you there. They hold you in, not letting you move forward with what you want to do. It's as though you are locked in the same cycle every day. Life just flowing by you, making you jealous or unsatisfied with your lot.
I so want to change this, to break away from the margins of life and jump in head first. I want to meet challenges head on, to take risks, to explore the world. I want to change myself. I want to put myself out there, undaunted by potentially failing. Failing is a learning experience, gaining knowledge about myself. Which seems to be something else I am missing out on, living in the margins as I am.
I have to learn to extract myself from the margins, to be out there. Escape the unending cycle the margins of life keep me in. So that I can be someone and have a life worth living. So that I have stories to tell my children and grandchildren. I want to make a life for myself so that I can leave a legacy that I can be proud of.
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