I thought I knew you... Well, I do know you. You haven't changed since our falling out. You are the same childish, ignorant, easily manipulated, somewhat conservative 30 something b* who can't seem to unlatch from mama's wallet/house/life/tit. Excuse the crude language.
You only see me as how I once was. Sure, I could be dramatic then, but seriously. Everyone can have drama, even the low maintenance people who stay away from it. Yeah, maybe I was a little ignorant then. But at least, in the past ten years of my life, I have seen more of the world and been cultured and have been part of more than you'll ever be in your life. Ever. I am nowhere near as ignorant at 24 as you are in your late 30s. Which is real sad. And I am not bigoted. I am a minority. A bisexual woman. When we were friends, I made you question your sexuality, but you never made it to being part of the minority.
Unlike you, I HAVE changed since then. Oh, have I got something for you, Queen of Unchanged Selfishness and Drama. Yes, girl, enjoy the ride, because you will be blown away. A difficult feat, due to - how to put this mildly- your stature.
I have been home for a total of about 11 months since June, 2013. I moved out for six months in 2013, came home for a month and a half, left for FEMA Corps, came home for six months, then left for seven months. I've been home for four months, studying for an exam AND working. Did I mention that my exam is a nationally certifying exam?? No? Okay, just to let you know, there is absolutely NO pressure. At all.
I am also trying to move out of my mama's house within the next year or so. Yeah, it will be difficult. But it will be so damn worthwhile. Because I will finally be independent. I will have my own place, I will be doing my own shit. I will be myself.
Honestly, I don't understand you. You allow yourself to be manipulated. You let other people tell you what kind of opinions to have - about yourself, about others. is there anything you do for yourself, independent from anyone else?
It seems as though you are content by living as an 18 year old, not an almost 40 year old. So involved in yourself, the drama you cause, your obsessions of childish desires, that you can't see change around you. You are so caught up in trying to get Twitter follows from people who don't even know you exist and being perceived as good and popular that you don't think there are people out there who know who you really are. You would rather tear someone down (and do it happily), you wouldn't know what to do if someone would do it to you.
I have some advice for you. Get your head out of the sand and take stock of the world and people around you. Stop sucking mama's tatas and maybe get some independent thought. Oh, wait... the only independent thought I've ever known you to have was the one where you wanted some... well, rather unsavory things with me and my ex (although you "respected" us enough to just tell us what you wanted and not push it... it's "respectful" of you to tell us how needy you are and how you wanted us to feed into your questioning to satisfy your curiosity because you're more into yourself than actual equality). And maybe that's why you don't think independently. Because you have such terrible ideas when you do, and it turns you into the laughing stock of the village. Which is something you don't like.
Have a wonderful life.
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