Saturday, 9 January 2021

RE: 6 January 2020 Riots

hundreds of rioters threatened the voice of the free people, based on lies fed to them by a man who has no clue what reality is anymore. men and women who have brought our democracy to the brink of destruction because they believe the words of a man who puts his trust in the tales of idiots and his own twisted and sick imagination. 

a woman was shot by police. emergency services treated her on scene and transported her to the hospital. she was DOA. she lost her life because of confusion and trigger happy people. additionally, a police officer died, doing the job that he loved. he was proud to be doing what he did. 

another officer was crushed between a door and the mob, bloodied, while people were trying to remove his mask as he was screaming in agony. screaming. in agony. read that again. and again. read that until it makes you uncomfortable. 

when he was finally able to get free, he was asked if he was okay. he answered affirmatively, according to CNN. however, CNN was unaware of his condition at the time that I read the article. I hope that he is safe and healthy, physically unbroken by what he went through. the gods know that he will struggle with this trauma mentally for years; why burden him with any more physical pain that he had been through?

it is heartbreaking that the country is now on the brink of destruction. it has been a four year dumpster fire, and this is the culmination. this is the fall-out. we have expected something, but we never expected this. it has been more than 200 years since the Capitol Building was overtaken - since the British overtook in in 1814 and burned it, during the War of 1812.

I thought this would be it, Trump trying to be the next Hitler - he is a Facist after all. with his lies about the election, after Russia-gate, after all of his fake news and alternative facts, I had thought we reached the end. I thought things could not get worse. his followers - brainwashed and mindless - proved us ALL wrong. 

this is so destructive for everything we have fought for, for our rights, our democracy. what happens if - when - this whole thing comes to heads? this country as we know it will cease to exist. 

what is worse is that Trump doesn't care. Trump acts like this was nothing, like the riot was totally justified, like he had done nothing at all. several of his supporters in the House and Senate have turned against him since the riot started. even his Vice President has turned his back on Trump, certifying the election results, and condemning the riot.

these are uncertain times, and we have to stand together, in unity. we need to support each other, and fight against all the injustices that were caused during this dumpster fire term. we need to remain united as one front. we are stronger than this. 

Monday, 4 January 2021

RE: You know who you are

We met in September, in the height of the final days of summer, and the start of my absolute favorite season. On an anonymous site, no less. And the very first day we talked, we met at my local municipal park. 

And that was the start of our fiery - yet short - fling. We had four or five weeks of fun, hooking up, with that chemistry so on point, it was crazy, especially with someone I barely knew. We somehow clicked so well in that way that it was insane. 

And somehow, in the few weeks we had our fling, I developed feelings for you. I really did. Even though I tried so damn hard to keep that separate from our fling. Because I enjoyed our thing so much, I never acknowledged them. 

But yet... my anxiety got in the way. You said that there had been red flags that you chose to ignore because you enjoyed our physical fling as much as I did. When my anxiety exploded, our relationship fractured. It fell apart. You ghosted me, and I kind of fell apart. 

I tried to reach out to you, and you tried again with me - for a day. But you said I was still too much. You couldn't handle me. And you said goodbye for real. It was then that I finally acknowledged my feelings for you. 

I sent you a message or three after you said goodbye to tell you how I felt. You never responded. I messaged you, posing as one of my friends, and you basically told me to f**k off. Even though I told you, still posing as one of my friends, that you didn't realize what you had lost, and that you never deserved me anyways, because I never deserved your bullsh*t. 

It was then that I finally let go. I let you go. Because you are not worth my time. You are not worth the headache, you are not worth my mental health struggling, you are not worth my emotional stability becoming unstable. So I have to say thank you for helping me wake up, because I now realize that it's your kind of bullsh*t that I do not need in my life. 

Have a good life.